In the first two installments of our eLearning Series, Reclaiming Your Fertility, we have covered charting your cycle, timing intercourse for natural conception, and optimal nutrition for reproductive health. While reclaiming your fertility does include practical “how to” details like these (have sex on certain days, eat this and not that, do this self-care practice to balance your TCM zang-fu organ imbalance), truly reclaiming your fertility goes way beyond “how to” and means living life from a place of authenticity, openness, courage, and vulnerability. The essence of the work we do at Acupuncture Denver as Fertile Soul Affiliates is about this as much as it is about being highly experienced experts in the field of Oriental Reproductive Medicine. When we open our hearts and live life with authenticity, we find that miracles do happen.
My colleague Donna Huber and I always begin our “Reclaim Your Fertility” Fertile Soul Workshops with two questions for the attendees: “How many of you believe in miracles?” and “How many of you think you can force a miracle?” Whether the miracle in our lives is the birth of a biological child, the completion of an adoption, the realization of a long-forgotten dream, an opening to spirit, reconnecting with our creativity, or the conscious decision to embrace child-free living, miracles are possible for all of us. They happen when we have the courage to go to the depths, feel the tenderness of our own vulnerability, and let go. Or as Donna says so eloquently, when we realize we “don’t have to give up the dream, but we can give up the fight.”
One of my favorite teachers, Brene Brown PhD., writes extensively about this in her books I Thought it Was Just Me and The Gifts of Imperfection and speaks about it in her video The Hustle For Worthiness. She notes that while we can easily access “how to” in terms of how to eat, exercise, spend money, or live a healthful lifestyle, we are the “most obese, over-medicated, and in-debt cohort in history.” Her point is that while we are all willing to look at information or “how to,” we are terrified of looking at the things that underlie the choices we make (which are clearly not the most healthful ones in most cases).
While Dr. Brown is referring to the US population in general and how we all struggle with health and wellness despite being virtually inundated with “how to” information, I think what she is saying is even more relevant to those struggling with infertility. In the world of infertility, there is a plethora of how-to information: Western medicine books, Chinese medicine books, blogs, forums, magazines, websites, the unwelcome advice of well-meaning friends and relatives, the predictions of psychics, “birth intuitives,” and “spirit-baby” channels, the counsel of world-famous reproductive endocrinologists, the lifestyle prescriptions of acupuncturists, and on and on. Despite having access to all this information and advice, many of my patients still come to me feeling overwhelmed, disconnected, and deeply mired in shame. My greatest aspiration as a practitioner is to offer a safe haven to my patients where they can be themselves and tell their stories. This is the first step to moving from shame, fear and disconnection to courage, compassion and connection (the latter being the antidotes to the former, according to Dr. Brown's research).
As someone who went through my own pregnancy losses and family-building struggle, I know how desperation feels and how it provoked me to look outside myself for answers, certainty, and reassurance. None of these things “worked” or brought me to a place of peace. It was only when I was able to face my worst fears, feel the depth of my grief, and open my heart to the intensity of the love I felt for the babies I lost that my own miracle happened. When I listened to the “still small voice” in my heart, I was overcome by a deep knowing that led to choosing adoption at just the right time to connect us with our son, who is the greatest miracle I have ever known.
So while I will happily share some basic lifestyle and self-care information in this email, I also urge you to look below the surface and unearth the wisdom that lies within you. And despite the distractions and voices coming at you from all sides, take time and create enough stillness to listen to your own heart.
To learn more about Brene Brown’s work, I encourage you to watch her brief TEDx video and visit her website. And to have a truly life-changing experience on your own fertility journey, I highly recommend attending a Fertile Soul retreat with Dr. Randine, my mentor, friend and wise teacher.
Please feel free to email me or call us at the clinic if you'd like more information about our treatment programs, workshops, or classes. We are honored to work with couples on their family-building journeys and feel grateful to witness so many miracles every day!
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